Lost. Faith. Hope.

@Castor_manfashion's Tartan Parka ~ Newlook's Tanktop & Creepers ~ Stradivarius' Denim Shorts ~ @SwaggieUnicorn_Closet's Beanie

Ayee Mates!!

This is what I wore to localfest last month or couple of weeks ago. I am deeply in love with my tartan parka that I got last month. Its super big, very loose and not that thick. Perf! Tbh, I'm very disappointed with the localfest this time. why? First, you need to pay IDR 10k for the entrance fee. Hey? We're there to shop and enjoy -huff- Second, the place. It was held at grand indonesia mall 5th floor parking area and I kid you not! It was insanely hot!! I even sweat quite a bit when I was there. When I'm feeling hot everything seems to be just not right -huff- So yeah I really hope that next time localfest would improve their system. I would give this event 3.5 out of 5 thoo ;;)

Moving on to the title of this post. Sounds weird eh? Basically its just words that perfectly describe how I feel now. Lost. Faith. Hope. I started my college last 2 months ago and sometimes I feel I got left behind with all of the subjects, they're much more harder than what I expect. I feel like I can keep up with my social life with friends because somehow I feel different? I don't even know my feelings are, it feels numb. I pay too much attention to my surrounding that I feel that I almost got sucks out from who I am. That makes me feel think twice who I really am? Because I feel comfortable when I'm not doing what I normally did but at the same time I miss being normal. But yeah, I don't even know what I'm talking about. I did a lot of 'what ifs' and it seriously make me think twice of who I am. Gosh! It feels so weird. Well, I found a words said "Have faith and hope and everything will be alright" I really I wish I could be alright but in fact, I'm not fine at all..

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-cheer, michelle

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