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“Don’t carry your burden all the time ‘cause we don’t live here all the time too.” -Ps. J. E. Awondatu

Aye Mates!

How’s your new year so far? Sorry for not posting in a while, loads of things happened and I just got no time to be active on blog and youtube. Mine has been quite all over the place but in amidst of everything, I want to say that I’m still grateful. 

I started the year being sick and not feeling well (mentally lol). Now my thesis proposal is in the stake of getting rejected from my department associates (update: IT GOT ACCEPTED PRAISE THE LORD!). I haven’t even get the permission letter to do the observation (update: I change my title so I don't need that permission letter anymore). I guess I’m too stress out that it makes me more emotional, I tried to hold it inside but it just makes my heart hurt so bad. Like I’m not kidding I even thought I have some kind of a chronic disease lol. Because it always felt like my heart being stabbed by thousand needles. 

On the first week of Sunday I went to church and I don’t know why but the sermon really hits me in the face. My pastor stated that this year is the year of walking weightlessly. He said that God knows what we’ve been through, don’t think that we, human walk on this earth carrying all of our burden by ourselves. It’s new year, so learn to leave behind our burden and past that slow us down to God. Burden can be our fears, worries, regrets, guilt and all these negativity that tries to consume you. We came from God and He’s trying to said to us that “your problem is MY problem too. Don’t think I can’t feel your sorrow and sadness, you come from Me.”

I know this post is so all over the place from the start I’m being so negative with my life but then afterward I’m writing this motivational and positive words from my church. But hey it’s all about balance, you get the good and bad in life. I myself to be honest is slowly recovering from all this anxiety attack that tries to eat my mind with all this negativity, I'm not saying it's gone, it's still there but I know God provides and always take care of me. For whoever hurting now, hang in there, this too shall pass. Even tough I tried to reminds myself too, fighting! Good luck :)

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-Cheers, Michelle

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Aye Mates!

 

What would you do if you see your crush coming your way? Act cool but ended doing the weirdest thing ever? Pretend like you didn’t know he or she exists? Pretending to be busy? Stares? Called him or her out like as if you know them well? Friendly smile? What will you do?

As in my case, I tried to act cool as if I didn’t know he’s coming but I ended up being so weird and my face blushed up till I think it really shows on my face. I tried my best not to look at him but always ended up staring because hey you can’t help it when you see your crush, am I rite? My friend told me that it’s okay for girls to make the first move. Call me old-fashion but I really appreciate it when guy make the first move it just really shows how he’s a total gentleman. I don’t get why guy said “girls play-so-hard-to-get” when in reality guys do play-hard-to-get as well. It’s confusing lol. Sometimes I wouldn’t mind introducing myself to the guy I have a crush on first but I just hate the thought of that guy being so pretentious or “geer” or thought that “oh she must like me so much that she makes the first move” or “I must be cool enough that she like me”, like HELLO! WHY? If a guy had a thought like that it really gives me a very bad impression and I will ended up disgusted by it. But what do you think guys?

Yes I currently have a crush one someone that know I exists because my kind of “act cool” (you know what I mean). I’m afraid he sees me as this one weird girl but I don’t know what to do. I can only see him from afar and in secret because somehow I don’t want him to notice my weird existence. Share your stories or experience with your crush and let me know what will you do if you’re in my position. Thanks doe! :)

-Cheer, Michelle

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