Just A Little Hope

H&M's Snapback ~ Cotton On's Tee ~ Thrifted Flannel ~ @BlackBook_Jkt's Bag ~ Converse Black Hi-Top

"And you will be secure, because there is hope;

you will be protected and will take your rest in safety"

-Job 11:18

Ayee Mates!!

Let me start with the look first. So I wore this couple of weeks ago when I visited Bogor for my dentist appointment and I found an old-vintage looking house across the dentist and I decided to just take a few photos regardless a bunch of people eyed me like "hell-o girl~ wth are you doin'" hahaha but yeah #Confidence #Dontcare :') I love flannel so much because I think its very grunge-ish esp. when you pair it with black hi-top, 5SOS much? I got this RAD bag from BlackBook which is a local brand and they sell a lot of grunge and RAD stuffs so you mates should go and check that out!

Second, I put this the quote and title with theme "HOPE" for this post is because lately I've been feeling so empty, not sad but some kind of weird feeling like tired, yes that's the perfect word for it. I'm tired and sick of this life like I just want to end everything or escape the reality. I cried almost every night thinking how worthless, ugly, bad I am and I feel like my existence isn't accepted not even my family, I just feel bad of myself. I don't know what to do and I can't even think straight, I did some things that you might be thinking now and its sucks but I can't stop it somehow, it hurts but at the same time I feel numb, I feel that the weight on my shoulder drop one by one and it climbs back to my mind and I kept on doing it. My mind is not a normal one. I'm afraid of the world like crazy, its a world full of hatred and judgements and I'm human I can't take everything all at once. It makes me think a lot about my body structure, physical appearance and even how I talk and how I dress up (its getting serious sometimes). No I'm not bullied, whereas I'm so blessed that I have a couple of friends that really understand my weirdness. I prayed and found this bible verse and I feel bad that I wanted to waste my life just like that while there are hundreds of people out there still fighting to take every breath of fresh oxygen, that makes me so ungrateful bitch, so that's why I'm trying to live the positive vibes life and please comment down below if you ever feel like this and trust me you're not alone, me too! :)

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-cheer, michelle

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Amnesia

Forever21's Graphic Tank & Necklace ~ Baleno's Flannel ~ H&M's Jeans ~ Converse's Shoes

Ayee Mates!!

Around 2 weeks ago, I met up and did a photoshoot with my bae kak Sonya from A Little Color :) We had fun time gossiping and laughing and eating puyo! I invaded her camera for this photoshoot because her camera's lens is just too damn good!! Thanks kak onya for letting me taking photos with your camera hehehe I seriously going to save money and getting a nicer lens in the future -finger crossed- :')

The tank said "I Love Rock & Roll" and I must admit that rock is -hands down- my second fave music genre after EDM. I love Boys Like Girls, Greenday, Paramore and of course.. 5 SECONDS OF SUMMER!! -wooppppp- any 5SOS fans here? My fave member is Luke Hemimings a.k.a my future boyfie (#iwish), I bought their album and I love all of the tracks! This outfit was also inspired by some rock stars, flannels, skinny jeans and converse are like their main fashion points. Like this..

Luke Hemmings from 5SOS

5SOS (L-R): Ashton Irwin, Michael Clifford, Luke Hemmings, Calum Hood

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Codec

Granny's vintage jumper ~ Charles Jourdan's sling bag ~ TheSwaggieUnicorn's glasses & bowler hat ~ converse's starry shoe

Ayee Matesss!!

I'm finally done with national examssss!! -woot woot- I'm like dancing happily to this freedom I'm enjoying here. well, its not going to be that free tho since the school insists all 12graders to come to school for graduation's rehearsal #ugghhh. I miss my friends already #Imnotjoking! I miss laughing and joking together tbh.

Ohhh~ btw, I wanted to share my current fave artist atm, its ZEDD!! yes that zedd the dj who compose clarity (you must be living under the rock if you havent heard it. #JKAAYYY). I don't know why I suddenly listening to all of his songs lately whereas kpop is like my everyday jam! well, I always love electro music kinda thing but not my aunt, she's not really into it. I do because the beat just makes me want to move and jump and being hyper (well...), the title of this post is also one of zedd's song from his album 'clarity', you should go listen to it if you're an electro fan like me but let me remind you that there's no one singing in this song so its just like all beat. today I got a surprised by my dad, I was like looking everywhere for zedd's album but some places doesn't carry zedd's album, I was quite desperate until then I found it in sangaji music store in gandaria city! I'm about to pay it myself but my dad stop me and he bought me the album! I was like 'AAAAAA!' I'm so so so so HAPPYYY~ my current favorite song from zedd is his latest single 'Find You' feat. Matthew Koma & Miriam Bryant, this song is the soundtrack for Divergent (I haven't watch that movie dammit!), even tough the MV is kinda weird but still worth to watch because of the effect.

Okayyyy~ So that's the end for today post and (better late than never) Happy Good Friday Y'all!! :D I joined egg's decorating competition held at my chuch, everyone have to join so I joined the competition and I won 2nd place! I got this sony bluetooth speaker as a gift! thank God! :) God Bless Y'all and Peace Out Girl Scout ^^v

-cheer, michelle

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NoNoNo

 

vintage from my aunt's dress ~ converse's white hi-top ~ forever21's varsity jacket

Ayee Mates!!

I'm facing my school exams at the moment. 1 month to national exams! looking forward to it, I just can't wait for the freedom, not going to school, waking up in the morning, reading all those textbooks and blah blah blah. but one thing I know I will miss is the time spent with my friends. all of us are going to different university so we won't be together anymore (only one friend of mine that will go to the same uni like me and luckily he took the same major like mine, so relieve at least on the first day of orientation I don't have to be scared of new people). I just miss all those crazy stuffs we did, random conversations and even chatting and gossiping during lesson :')

I love this dress like so much! maybe some people would think its a nightgown or what Indonesian would say daster (:p) but for me its not, I think long dress is very comfy to use without worrying skin exposure or stuffs. this dress's material is too nice and its perfect for Indonesia's weather. I also love to tie my hair like this because it makes my face looks slimmer and the hair won't go on my face that will cause pimple.

btw, I took all of these pictures with my ipod, so the quality won't be as great as usual but its still okay tho~ I just don't have the time to do photoshoot with my camera, I took these pictures during my additional class on Saturday.

picture with the photographer Clairine Kalalo, love her jumpsuit, it looks cute don't u think? ;;)

-cheer, michelle

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*#currentfavesongs: A-Pink's NoNoNo, GOT7's Girls Girls Girls, Idina Menzel / Hyorin Sistar / Ailee's Let It Go

SWAG

ayee mates!

 

new look's (grandma's) shirt ~ forever21's tee ~ colorbox's shorts ~ converse's hi-top in black ~ xAuthenticityx's beanie ~ gifted bag

I love this look like so so much! :3

I love to use my converse hi-top but they're too big for me (it was given for me by my cousin) but  yeah I dont care. one thing I hate when I'm wearing shorts is that a lot of people will stares at me. I hare it when they stares at me as if like I'm not wearing any shorts (especially those perverts -eww-). 

I'm obsess over beanie! if I could collect every single beanie, I would. well not just beanie tho but also snapbacks and head-wear. its a perfect coverage for your 'bad hair day' but too bad my school won't allow the students to wear cap at school -boooooo!-

Mid-term examinations ends this Friday!!! -dancing around the room- xD

but facing the fact that I still have 4 subjects left until its over -sobs- I've been so lazy lately that even I, myself admit it. all I want to do is blogging, making youtube videos, hanging out or just having fun instead of studying or facing my book for mid-term exams. well wish me luck for my exams guys :)

-cheer, michelle

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