Thursday, December 31, 2015

Fear











Zara's Jumper ~ Cotton On's Bag ~ HM's Kicks

Ayee Mates!!
Here I am writing a post before closing my 2015, I'm so sorry for being MIA in blogging but I don't know guys, I want to write a lot of things here but sometimes I just fear what I want to say doesn't seems to interest you all. But anyway I will change that perspective of mine on 2016 (one of my new year's resolution I guess lol) because the more I think about it, this is my blog and I want to be real because this is #TheSwaggieUnicorn not anyone else eh? 
Btw, welcoming 2016 I don't have any resolutions. Why you ask? Because I fear I might get too stress by following or sticking to the resolutions. Like earlier this year I made a resolution that I have to study harder and not failing any classes but it ended up making me like a robot in negative ways. Like I always study that I forgot how to have fun, it's been programmed to me like a rigid robot. During the midterms, I got bad score and I ended up being stress and I (almost) gave up on life as well, sounded cliche but that's what I get from the pressure of being perfect. I fear that everything I do or did will never be good enough and I will ended up disappointing a lot of people I love. I fear that when I disappoint people they will leave me. So the core of my fear is fear of being alone and failing. It's weird. I fear of being alone but when a lot of people put their attention of me it gives me this weird anxiety feeling. I don't even know if this is normal but just letting you know one fact about me that I never share with anyone. Since this is my last post of 2k15, I'm being very honest right now :))

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-cheer, michelle
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Thursday, December 17, 2015

Hotline Bling













HM's Jumper ~ Cap ~ Sneakers ~ Stradivarius' Boyfie Jeans ~ @SwaggieUnicorn_Closet's Choker

Ayee Mates!!
Finally uploaded the fall-cold season lookbook on my youtube channel #booitsmichelle. Please watch it and give it a thumbs up and subscribe if you haven't and tell me which one is your fave out of all thankyou :))
This is my by-far fave go-to everyday look for running errands, go to campus and everywhere basically. It includes some of my fave outfit pieces such as jumper, baseball cap, clutch and sneakers. It's so comfy and  perf for all kind of weather I guess :D
Anyway, I'll be finally on Christmas break next week for 2 weeks and I don't have plan to go anywhere outside Jakarta lol, probably will meet up with couple of friends and film more videos and finish a couple of kdramas probably, so please do recommend a few kdramas for me to watch, please don't recommend me any horror related story lol thankyou. Again quick reminder to always be yourself and never change what you are for other people kay? #MeLoveYou

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-cheer, michelle
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Wednesday, December 9, 2015

Love Yourself












Forever21's Cardigan ~ Uniqlo's Tee ~ @Youniq_'s Necklace ~ Adidas' Kicks

Ayee Mates!!
Maybe once you read the title you'll directly remember Justin Bieber's song eh? But no that's not what I want to talk about today. I just want to said to all people who are dealing with anxiety and self-esteem problem just remember that you're not the only one, I do too. It was worse for me couple of years ago but I recovered for now, even tough I still have problem with it at some point and somehow but I keep on repeating this words "Love Yourself" on my mind. I once heard a sermon that "Once we come to agree with our negative thoughts, we give power to all these negativity to rule over us. But we should remember and believe that God created us perfect just the way we are." So please don't ever change no matter what the reasons are, esp. when you change yourself for someone #DONT, don't ever dare to do that, if someone ask you to change then that's mean that person doesn't love you truly #clearly, if you happen to deal with that kind of situation, leave, because clearly you don't have reasons to stay and feel insecure all the time. You'll find someone who will love you just the way you are eventually *wink wink* 
Okay, I'm so sorry for the random thoughts that I shared today and I don't even say sorry for the long absence here on my blog, aaa I'm so sorry but I'm just at the moment busy with my entrepreneur's project where I have to create a brand and sell it at expo or bazaar This Sunday, 13 December 2015 at Living World Mall, Alam Sutera, Tangerang. SO I would like to invite all of you to come and taste a new squishy, fluffy, chewy dessert that will melt in your mouth and heart lol, introducing MARSHBAELLOW :))



#QOTD:
"Again, I tell you the truth, if two of you on earth agree about whatever you ask, my Father in heaven will do it for you." -Matthew 18:19

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-cheer, michelle
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