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How’s your 2017 so far? Can’t believe it’s almost the end of 2017, time did flies really fast. 2017 had been good but it’s not always happy, sunshine and rainbow like those tales in storybook. Sometimes life can be mean to us eh? Well but that’s life. You can’t expect your life to be a perfect kdramas, life is like a wheel. Where at some point we feel so high and on the top of the world then in just a split of time we went low and hit the rock bottom. If I’m not mistaken there’s a song that has a lyric like “what comes up must come down”, life is seriously as fair as that.
My 2017 has been nothing but weird lol. What I meant by weird is my emotional. At one day I started off my day feeling so happy and energetic but then in couple of hours I feel so tired and drained and my mood just drop and I feel like not doing anything. What I hate the most from that is I became more emotional that my brain was filled with all these negativity, I remembered all the worst side of me that made me blamed myself, when have my days like that it just really shows on my face (I have restless bitch face btw I know, people said that all the time) that people said that I looks so mean when I didn’t mean to. All of a sudden I just feel so depressed.
Now I don’t really want to use the word “depressed” after what happen to SHINEE’s Jonghyun. When the news came I seriously can’t accept the fact, I love SHINEE but not as much as BTS, Jonghyun committed suicide leaving a letter behind stating that he’s depressed and he just want someone to tell that he did good. I used to think I’m depressed because of my situation that I stated before, I even cut but I’m not bold enough to actually cut it so deep. I’m tired but yet I don’t want to feel pain even for the last time ha! I’m such a coward huh? That’s why I really can’t accept the fact that Jonghyun committed suicide because of his depression. I mean he’s rich duh, fans love him, whatever he want he could have it. But then I remembered money can’t always bring happiness, there are still some things that don’t required money, love, happiness, peace and all things like that. I’ll talk more about my depression and all that stuff in a separate blog or video if you’re interested let me know.
I’m doing a what I’m grateful for 2017 and what I want to achieve in 2018 video soon on my channel Booitsmichelle, subscribe so you’ll get the latest update from me. I’m so grateful for 2017 because I still get through another year and given a chance to start again every day. What are you grateful for 2017? Let me know, I’m curious!
To sum up: Thank you so much 2017, you had been great and for now I'm gonna restart and can't wait to write loads of my personal thoughts on a blank page or even book :)