Thursday, December 31, 2015

Fear











Zara's Jumper ~ Cotton On's Bag ~ HM's Kicks

Ayee Mates!!
Here I am writing a post before closing my 2015, I'm so sorry for being MIA in blogging but I don't know guys, I want to write a lot of things here but sometimes I just fear what I want to say doesn't seems to interest you all. But anyway I will change that perspective of mine on 2016 (one of my new year's resolution I guess lol) because the more I think about it, this is my blog and I want to be real because this is #TheSwaggieUnicorn not anyone else eh? 
Btw, welcoming 2016 I don't have any resolutions. Why you ask? Because I fear I might get too stress by following or sticking to the resolutions. Like earlier this year I made a resolution that I have to study harder and not failing any classes but it ended up making me like a robot in negative ways. Like I always study that I forgot how to have fun, it's been programmed to me like a rigid robot. During the midterms, I got bad score and I ended up being stress and I (almost) gave up on life as well, sounded cliche but that's what I get from the pressure of being perfect. I fear that everything I do or did will never be good enough and I will ended up disappointing a lot of people I love. I fear that when I disappoint people they will leave me. So the core of my fear is fear of being alone and failing. It's weird. I fear of being alone but when a lot of people put their attention of me it gives me this weird anxiety feeling. I don't even know if this is normal but just letting you know one fact about me that I never share with anyone. Since this is my last post of 2k15, I'm being very honest right now :))

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-cheer, michelle
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34 comments:

  1. Happy New Year Chelle!! Omaigat you look so gorgeous haha agak lebay ya but seriously that's the truth. Btw, KPOPers? :p

    Sylvi Says Hello

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    1. happy new year sylviaaa~ :D
      aww thankyou so much, it means a lot to me and YASS i'm a KPOPer <33

      cheer, michelle ~ http://livedreammagic.blogspot.com/

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  2. love your shoes!
    have a happy new year <3

    breepluse.blogspot.com | @evansbrenda

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    1. thankyou brenda and happy new year to you too! <33

      -cheer, michelle

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  4. aaaa...cici keren banget disini!! The pictures really says the thoughts

    iya ci, kadang resolusi bikin kita tertekan. Tapi, jangan lupa, hidup juga harus terencana :)

    novemberflower.blogspot.com

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    1. aww thankyou so much anastasiaaa <33
      yapp~ i couldn't agree more with you there~ cheers babeee :))

      -cheer, michelle

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    1. thankyou and happy new year to you too dear <33

      -cheer, michelle

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  6. Happy new year!!!

    Lovely post:-)
    xoxo<3
    http://sissihope.blogspot.ch

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  7. I'm sure whatever you write, we'd love it! I find that anything from beauty, to fashion, to people's everyday thoughts and lives interest me. I understand what it means to be stress, but it's all about taking a deep breath, relaxing, and then going back to kick the situation in the butt XD Happy New Year! I'm sure 2016 will be an amazing year!

    New Post & Giveaway: http://shijakibanida.blogspot.com/

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    1. aww thankyou nicoleee :))
      happy new year to you too dear <33

      cheer, michelle ~ http://livedreammagic.blogspot.com/

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  8. HAppy New Year! First of all, Liking your outfit! Your shoes are super cute! They look so comfy like pillows! lol And your feet look so tiny its so cute! lol :P And for new years resolutions, I agree with you Its hard to keep new years resolutions, it could be stressful because you know you said it and you want to live up to that expectation and not let anyone down. Maybe it would be a good thing to just stay positive and a starting point before getting to a bigger resolution like some that you thought for yourself. Start small and work your way up :) Stepping stones <3 I just found your blog and I'm enjoying my stay here very much. You are super real and down to earth, i really feel like i can relate to you:D You're doing a great job so don't ever think little of yourself! :P 2016 will be another great year. Do you <3

    Hopefully this isn't too weird but Let's be friends! :) New friends for the new year<3

    www.sshrimppaste.blogspot.com

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    1. awww thankyou so much babe for your sweet comment <33
      and happy new year to you too! and sure lets be friend following you now keep in touch :))

      -cheer, michelle

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  9. Love how you wear all black clothing but white shoes...it's like...idk... a black stick with white tip ? (lol pardon me)
    Well, I feel ya. Ikr how it feels. I hate being alone, it makes me feels anxious, but on the contrary, I hate when people gather around me, it's like 'PLEASE GIVE ME A SPACE!!!!!1' lol >,<

    Adventure of P-Chaaan!!

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    1. HAHAHAA LOL I JUST REALIZED IT WHEN YOU POINT THAT OUT xD
      omgg~ that's how i feel when people put their attention on me :')

      -cheer, michelle

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  10. wearing black in 2016!

    http://www.adhiwahyudi.com/2015/12/the-rooftop-pull-bear.html

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  11. Amazing look :)
    http://modishnessblog.blogspot.com/

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  12. dress nya lucuuuu banget! monochrome ftw ya chel! :D

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    1. hahaha yass to monochrome <33

      -cheer, michelle

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  13. Never go wrong with black!!
    But omgsh! I have to tell you~ I love your blog name! Swaggie Unicorn :P
    Its so cute!!

    -lazypandah
    BLOG: ♥ lazypandah blog (✪㉨✪)♥

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    1. yayy for black <33
      aww thankyou *smoochies* love yours too lazy panda ;;)

      -cheer, michelle

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  14. omg your outfit is gorg and the pics too! such a nice composition~
    and the combo with your dark clothes and reddish lips make it perf together.
    gotta love ur blog ^^

    A C Y H O Z - blog

    x

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  15. Absolutely be yourself girl, welcome to 2016 and hope your resolution gets fulfilled asap. Have fun.

    Care.
    @MALENADU
    http://www.malenadugroup.blogspot.com

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