Friday, March 13, 2015

Just A Little Hope

H&M's Snapback ~ Cotton On's Tee ~ Thrifted Flannel ~ @BlackBook_Jkt's Bag ~ Converse Black Hi-Top

"And you will be secure, because there is hope;
you will be protected and will take your rest in safety"
-Job 11:18

Ayee Mates!!
Let me start with the look first. So I wore this couple of weeks ago when I visited Bogor for my dentist appointment and I found an old-vintage looking house across the dentist and I decided to just take a few photos regardless a bunch of people eyed me like "hell-o girl~ wth are you doin'" hahaha but yeah #Confidence #Dontcare :') I love flannel so much because I think its very grunge-ish esp. when you pair it with black hi-top, 5SOS much? I got this RAD bag from BlackBook which is a local brand and they sell a lot of grunge and RAD stuffs so you mates should go and check that out!

Second, I put this the quote and title with theme "HOPE" for this post is because lately I've been feeling so empty, not sad but some kind of weird feeling like tired, yes that's the perfect word for it. I'm tired and sick of this life like I just want to end everything or escape the reality. I cried almost every night thinking how worthless, ugly, bad I am and I feel like my existence isn't accepted not even my family, I just feel bad of myself. I don't know what to do and I can't even think straight, I did some things that you might be thinking now and its sucks but I can't stop it somehow, it hurts but at the same time I feel numb, I feel that the weight on my shoulder drop one by one and it climbs back to my mind and I kept on doing it. My mind is not a normal one. I'm afraid of the world like crazy, its a world full of hatred and judgements and I'm human I can't take everything all at once. It makes me think a lot about my body structure, physical appearance and even how I talk and how I dress up (its getting serious sometimes). No I'm not bullied, whereas I'm so blessed that I have a couple of friends that really understand my weirdness. I prayed and found this bible verse and I feel bad that I wanted to waste my life just like that while there are hundreds of people out there still fighting to take every breath of fresh oxygen, that makes me so ungrateful bitch, so that's why I'm trying to live the positive vibes life and please comment down below if you ever feel like this and trust me you're not alone, me too! :)

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Lately I've been so into making video more than writing blog.. omg.. does that make me a bad blogger now? :')

-cheer, michelle

Saturday, March 7, 2015


TheSwaggieUnicorn's Beanie ~ Cotton On's Tee & Necklace & Socks ~ Old Navy's (thrifted) Denim Jacket ~ New Look's Creepers

Ayee Mates!!
I must say that this outfit that this is one of the look that really screams out #TheSwaggieUnicorn. Well, I can said that because I'm very comfortable in this outfit like I feel confident and everything is just perf. lol. I adore beanie and creepers so much, very grunge-ish and tumblr-ish? And this outfit might look grunge but it also has a girly touch to it, love it tons :D
I actually have a lot to say in here but I just don't know where to start and also I'm thinking of doing a post specially for bullying ~ depression but I'm afraid that some people won't like it and well.. Should I make one? Hmm I'm in a dilemma :')

Btw, I just uploaded new bid on my channel, click HERE for direct link ;;)

-cheer, michelle 

Friday, February 27, 2015

#BooItsMichelle: #OOTD: Chinese New Year

Zalora's Jumpsuit ~ Rubi's Platform

Ayee Mates!!
I know I know Chinese New Year was last week but I just have the chance to post my OOTD post now, because I started my 2nd semester in college this week and its been so hectic. I may don't have morning class but I go home everyday at 5pm-ish and when I reach home, I still need to study and prepare for tomorrow classes and afterward I'll be probably on my bed lazying my butt off and pass out. OMGGG~ its just so tiring but at least I have to wake up early morning ;p

Back to my OOTD, recently I got a e-voucher from Zalora worth IDR 300k! AMAZEBALLS! At first I wanted to get their knockoff everly cutout boots like jeffrey campbell but at the end I end up chose this jumpsuit because Chinese New Year was around the corner and I haven't own any new clothes for that and my aunt also convinced me to get them, so I did! I love Zalora's service! Kid you not.. the shipping was so fast and the packaging is super neat and they even have the return policy things and also this is the most important one, the product looks exactly the same like the photos on their website -insert applause emoji here- :')

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-cheer, michelle

Sunday, February 15, 2015

A Little Too Much

Promod's Biker Semi-Leather Jacket ~ New Look's Ripped Jeans and Oxford ~ Pull & Bear's Bag ~ Vintage DIY Stripes Top & Cotton On's Gray Tee

Ayee Mates!
This look is so far my fave look because this is like something that I could pull off effortlessly and still looking cool and presentable at the same time. This outfit is also perf for Jakarta's weather lately, raining and cool, yeahh~ I wish it could always be like this but nah it'll cause flood to some particular area (not mine tho, mine is perfectly safe and sound). I have some dislike feel toward summer weather because I love to wear coat and outerwear and sometimes I can't even wear this semi-leather jacket out because its just too hot. So now it rains quite a bit I decided to wear this jacket because its cool and perfect for this weather. Well, if you saw the last photo you can definitely tell its so hot that time, just look at my shadow.. yes.. I sweat quite a bit that time, its because when I went out in the morning it was cloudy and cool so I thought its going to rain soon so I wore that jacket but after exam (yes I'm finally done with finals!) it was darn sunny :')

"Sometimes it all gets a little too much,
But you gotta realize that soon the fog will clear up,
And you don't have to be afraid, because we're all the same"

Well, sorry for that but its just I'm a fangirl, I don't do "calm down", I don't like him because of his look (yes, he's handsome but that's not the first reason why I love him), but he's very talented and all the lyrics of all his songs are just inspiring for me or maybe because I've been through a lot of stuffs? But nonetheless his voice is so angelic and I think he's amazing and that's why I would say he'll be better better and greater each day :) Listen to his new song A Little Too Much click click :D

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-cheer, michelle

Friday, February 13, 2015

#BooItsMichelle: #LookBook: Valentine's Outfit Inspirations

Ayee Mates!!
I created my lookbook for this year's valentine on my channel, here's a direct link to it -> Tell me which one is your fave look down in the comment box and yes due to copyright things the original song need to be remove and that includes my voice in the part where I'm updating my life to all of you #sucks :(
So basically, as I was saying I'm finally done with my finals for the 1st semester. That's also the reason why I've been long absent here in both youtube and blog, but I'm finally done with it, so here I am trying to be more productive, so yeah here are my valentine's lookbook. :D

1. Brunch Date

Dorothy Perkin's Top ~ Stradivarius' Shorts ~ Rubi's Platform Sandals and Bag

2. Val's Dinner

New Look's Dress ~ Rubi's Platform Sandals
 3. Afternoon Stroll

New Look's Tee and Platform Sandals ~ Uniqlo's Floopy Hat

4. Girls Night Out

H&M's Dress ~ New Look's Sequins Kimono and Hair Cuff ~ Rubi's Wedges ~ Celine's Clutch

5. Blind Date

Forever21's Crop Tank ~ H&M's Jeans

6. Valentine Wut?

Cotton On's Hoodie ~ Boxsale's Shorts

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-cheer, michelle
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Monday, January 26, 2015

Life of The Party

Aeropostale's Jumper ~ Uniqlo's Denim Jacket ~ Louis Vuitton's Vintage Backpack ~ New Look's Creepers & Jeans ~ SwaggieUnicorn's Beanie

Ayee Matess!!
This outfit is what I probably wear if I'm going abroad or live in somewhere in colder climate. I wore this look when it rained couple of weeks ago and inside the mall everyone stared at me like "WTF is she wearing?" or "Its not even cold and she layered denim jacket with jumper" or just deadly stares lol. Tbh, when they gave me that look I kinda giggled to myself because ha! turns out I'm not as normal as them, which I'm proud of lol. Normal is too mainstream ehh? ;;)
*p.s. I'm still having my finals till 6Feb :c

Btw, anyone here know Shawn Mendes?? Well he's a viner-youtuber-singer star that has released a lot of singles and also featured in The Vamps' Oh Cecillia Song! I'm in love with his voice ATM, especially in Life of The Party!! OMGGG~ They lyrics is just perf! Its very inspiring and he himself is very inspiring to me. Like This Onee.. :')

"So when it gets hard, don't be afraid
We don't care what them people say,
 We don’t have to be ordinary
Make your best mistakes
‘Cause we don’t have the time to be sorry
So baby be the life of the party
I’m telling you, take your shot it might be scary
Hearts are gonna break"

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-cheer, michelle