Hang in There

H&M's Dress & Choker ~ Vans Shoes ~ Thrifted Parka

Aye Mates!

How’s life? Mine has been okay I guess. Still struggling with my thesis proposal doe, but at least I am determined that I’m going to do qualitative research based thesis since I’m not that good with math but yet I’m an accounting student lol. So that’s for the update of my life. How about yours? Let me know, I’m curious!

As from my last video “Office Look Makeup Tutorial + WorkingFrom Home vs Going to The Office #ChellesThoughts”, ps go click the link and watch it, don’t forget to give it a thumbs up and subscribe to join me familia. I created a new series called #ChellesThoughts, it’s about my personal thoughts regarding certain topics and yesterday I talked about working from home compared to going to the office. I personally prefer going to the office since I have the excuse to buy new clothes for work lol even tough working from home is the best thing on earth since you don’t have to wake up early in the morning (talking about flexible working hours). Going to the office here for me means working for a company, I prefer that because I get stable income and I think that what’s really matter to me. Working from home here means being a full-time blogger and youtuber etc, I know some of you here earns more by doing blog and youtube rather than basic workers, but since I’m not that famous (HA!) I don’t really earn much #letsbereal. 

The reason why I’m doing blog and youtube at the first place is because I just want to channel out my personal style and photography. Since I’m very interested with fashion, photography, beauty and writing ever since I was a kid. Blogging and youtube channel are my platforms to channel out all of that, at first I didn’t know that people notice my blog or ever read it, I’m doing it purely just for fun. When I first started blogging some of my friends talk said nasty stuff and I was afraid that they’ll unfriend me so I took a break and wrote down my blog on private. As I grow up I realized why hide when this is what I’m good at, this is me and the only thing I can be proud of so I started to make my blog public gain. Who knows turns out there are people that share the same interest and stories as I do. I’m really grateful for every single one of you that read my blog and watches me on my youtube channel. Who knows from blogging and youtube I could make some virtual friends (I’m very socially awkward unicorn in real life) here and it’s so much fun! So yes I never thought of earning income from blogging and youtube. I’m so thankful as well for all brands that ever collabing with me. 

If I could go back and time travel, here’s what I would say to my 12-years-old self “hang in there! Just keep doing what you always do. As long as it makes you happy, just do it. What others said about you and your life doesn’t really matter. There will always be people that hate your or jealous of you, you can’t always please everyone and it’s okay. Be yourself no matter what. It’s your life. Make the most out of it.”

This is quite a long post eh? Wish could write longer version of history of TheSwaggieUnicorn, what’d ya think? Let me know and have a great day ahead.

-Cheer, Michelle

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Just A Little Hope

H&M's Snapback ~ Cotton On's Tee ~ Thrifted Flannel ~ @BlackBook_Jkt's Bag ~ Converse Black Hi-Top

"And you will be secure, because there is hope;

you will be protected and will take your rest in safety"

-Job 11:18

Ayee Mates!!

Let me start with the look first. So I wore this couple of weeks ago when I visited Bogor for my dentist appointment and I found an old-vintage looking house across the dentist and I decided to just take a few photos regardless a bunch of people eyed me like "hell-o girl~ wth are you doin'" hahaha but yeah #Confidence #Dontcare :') I love flannel so much because I think its very grunge-ish esp. when you pair it with black hi-top, 5SOS much? I got this RAD bag from BlackBook which is a local brand and they sell a lot of grunge and RAD stuffs so you mates should go and check that out!

Second, I put this the quote and title with theme "HOPE" for this post is because lately I've been feeling so empty, not sad but some kind of weird feeling like tired, yes that's the perfect word for it. I'm tired and sick of this life like I just want to end everything or escape the reality. I cried almost every night thinking how worthless, ugly, bad I am and I feel like my existence isn't accepted not even my family, I just feel bad of myself. I don't know what to do and I can't even think straight, I did some things that you might be thinking now and its sucks but I can't stop it somehow, it hurts but at the same time I feel numb, I feel that the weight on my shoulder drop one by one and it climbs back to my mind and I kept on doing it. My mind is not a normal one. I'm afraid of the world like crazy, its a world full of hatred and judgements and I'm human I can't take everything all at once. It makes me think a lot about my body structure, physical appearance and even how I talk and how I dress up (its getting serious sometimes). No I'm not bullied, whereas I'm so blessed that I have a couple of friends that really understand my weirdness. I prayed and found this bible verse and I feel bad that I wanted to waste my life just like that while there are hundreds of people out there still fighting to take every breath of fresh oxygen, that makes me so ungrateful bitch, so that's why I'm trying to live the positive vibes life and please comment down below if you ever feel like this and trust me you're not alone, me too! :)

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Lately I've been so into making video more than writing blog.. omg.. does that make me a bad blogger now? :')

-cheer, michelle

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