Friday, March 13, 2015

Just A Little Hope














H&M's Snapback ~ Cotton On's Tee ~ Thrifted Flannel ~ @BlackBook_Jkt's Bag ~ Converse Black Hi-Top

"And you will be secure, because there is hope;
you will be protected and will take your rest in safety"
-Job 11:18

Ayee Mates!!
Let me start with the look first. So I wore this couple of weeks ago when I visited Bogor for my dentist appointment and I found an old-vintage looking house across the dentist and I decided to just take a few photos regardless a bunch of people eyed me like "hell-o girl~ wth are you doin'" hahaha but yeah #Confidence #Dontcare :') I love flannel so much because I think its very grunge-ish esp. when you pair it with black hi-top, 5SOS much? I got this RAD bag from BlackBook which is a local brand and they sell a lot of grunge and RAD stuffs so you mates should go and check that out!

Second, I put this the quote and title with theme "HOPE" for this post is because lately I've been feeling so empty, not sad but some kind of weird feeling like tired, yes that's the perfect word for it. I'm tired and sick of this life like I just want to end everything or escape the reality. I cried almost every night thinking how worthless, ugly, bad I am and I feel like my existence isn't accepted not even my family, I just feel bad of myself. I don't know what to do and I can't even think straight, I did some things that you might be thinking now and its sucks but I can't stop it somehow, it hurts but at the same time I feel numb, I feel that the weight on my shoulder drop one by one and it climbs back to my mind and I kept on doing it. My mind is not a normal one. I'm afraid of the world like crazy, its a world full of hatred and judgements and I'm human I can't take everything all at once. It makes me think a lot about my body structure, physical appearance and even how I talk and how I dress up (its getting serious sometimes). No I'm not bullied, whereas I'm so blessed that I have a couple of friends that really understand my weirdness. I prayed and found this bible verse and I feel bad that I wanted to waste my life just like that while there are hundreds of people out there still fighting to take every breath of fresh oxygen, that makes me so ungrateful bitch, so that's why I'm trying to live the positive vibes life and please comment down below if you ever feel like this and trust me you're not alone, me too! :)

// Watch My Latest Vid HERE //
Lately I've been so into making video more than writing blog.. omg.. does that make me a bad blogger now? :')

-cheer, michelle

25 comments:

  1. Aww , your voice is really cute! hahaha

    BTW.. I don't know what kind of problem that occur you right now but..

    Be strong kay?

    We didn't know about each other yet. But I really hope that you could getting better and not thought about that kind of things again--anykind of thought that make you feels suffer.
    ^^

    Btw, would you mind to do follow-for-follow? So we're connected via blog! haha

    please lemme know if you want too by mention me on my blog after following me ^^

    I'm sure that I'm gonna follow you back soon afterward!

    Love ,
    characlaire.blogspot.com

    ps : cheer up, gurls^^

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    1. Aww thank you so much for the lovely words, really made my day :)
      and sure i'm following you now~ keep in touch <3

      -cheer, michelle

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  2. i love this outfi! and your voice is so cute :D
    I just followed your blog and I hope that you follow me back!

    xo, Lulu
    http://sassyblackswan.blogspot.com/

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    1. Aww thank youuuu :'3
      and yes following your blog now~ keep in touch <3

      -cheer, michelle

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  3. hey what's going on babe? cheer up! whatever your problems are, I'm sure you can go through it and finally you can see the beauty coming out after the problem is gone. Keep praying and trust Him, He won't let you down and leave you alone :)

    love love love love love,
    grace

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    1. yasss~ that's so true babee thanks for the lovely and sweet encouraging words bebbb :')

      -cheer, michelle

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  4. don't worry you are beautiful as you are
    be grateful for what you have!
    nice outfit!
    xoxo
    style frontier

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    1. thanks for the sweet words dear~ really made my dayyy :))

      -cheer, michelle

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  5. This too shall pass! Stay strong dear :) You have a great style. Anyway, I'm following you on GFC. Mind to follow me back? Thanks before :)

    THE PURPLE ALIEN

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    1. Aww thanks babeeee :"D
      and sure~ i'm following you now~ keep in touch <3

      -cheer, michelle

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  6. hey! tbh, I've ever felt that way and it was worthless, you know!! Having 'that' kind of feeling was really wasting my time and energy. So, you got to keep your head up and be strong! You are stronger than you think, trust me! ;D nice outfit anyway! I really like that oversized shirt! :D
    PS : gonna watch your vid after this ;)

    http://immekristiani.blogspot.com/
    From Bali, Indonesia - with love, Imme ❤

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    1. Aww thank you so much for the sweet encouraging words babee :'))
      hehehe thanks for watching my vid too yah babee :D

      -cheer, michelle

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  7. chelle ngeilter pake VSCOcam bukan? filternya yg apa namanya? kok enak gitu tonenya.

    love, Diras
    AYUADIRAS.BLOGSPOT.COM

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    1. iya pake vscocam dir hehehe apa yah namanya lupa" and itu juga beda" filternya :')

      -cheer, michelle

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  8. such a cute look! love ur header anyway, unicorn:D

    visit mine dear?:) xx

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  9. nice and funny .. cool like ur style....

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  10. your boyish style is cool

    xoxo
    chrysillayuneva.blogspot.com

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  11. Hey, be strong!
    I know how you are feeling right now and I think that was very normal. I guess people must at least think once about their self-worth. But, hey! you are stronger and loved more than you think. Instead of thinking with negative talk inside your mind, why dont spend your time with close friends and start having a positive and quality time together? Guess that will heal you or make you think that life is not as bad as you think ;)

    Btw, Shopious.com is now having blogging competition and would love to invite people to participate.
    More info please go to bit.ly/KejutanShopious

    xoxo,
    Mel

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    1. Aww thanks for the encouraging words and advices <3

      -cheer, michelle

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